Switching to Decaf

I’m terrified.  And excited.  I’m terrexcited.  We put an offer on a house.

It’s been a long time coming, we have been working toward this for 2 years, but really working on it for the past 6 months.  House hunting is exhausting and extremely confusing.  I had no idea how much work it would be or how much we would have to learn.  But after months of searching and reading and visiting and research we put an offer on a house.  Yesterday.  I’m terrified.

The house is in our ideal neighborhood.  It’s 2 small blocks away from our favorite elementary school.  We already have friends within walking distance.  The yard is fantastic and has a beautiful 15 year old oak tree and a garden bed already dug up in the backyard.  There’s nothing growing there right now, but the hard work is already done.  I’m excited.

The layout of the house is beautiful, but the décor and fixtures have not been updated since 1996 when it was built.  It’s gaudy and ridiculous, but fixable.  The roof is also original, and in Texas you have to replace your roof every 15-20 years.  Which means we will have to replace the roof.  Sooner than later, probably.  Which is terrifying.

The offer we put in was rather low, so I don’t think we will be moving forward right away.  The house is a little over priced and the seller doesn’t seem motivated at all.  I’m trying not to get my hopes up.  We won’t move forward with the house until the seller comes back to reality and deals with the market we are in and the issues the house has.  So we might have to walk away.  But I’ve already decorated most of the rooms in my head.  I’m pricing paint and bookshelves and googling projects like painting ceramic tiles. 

We are still far away from the part where we get a key, but closer than we’ve ever been before.  I’m learning about insurance and septic tanks and roofing.  I’m wondering if I can paint the gaudy gold on every single light fixture in the house.  I’m having a hard time staying calm and falling asleep.  My heart is racing like crazy all the time.

I’m terrexcited, and it’s keeping me up at night.  The possibilities, the uncertainty, it’s all so much to balance in one small person.  So I’ve switched to Decaf Coffee for the time being.  I’m shaking enough without the adding caffeine.  I’m back to Yoga first thing every morning, and I’m making sure to read my bible every day and listen to calming music.  All this is too much for one high strung mama to handle without some sort of plan.  Life is changing.  We are moving forward.  I’m excited and terrified.  And decaffeinated.  People, this could be a long couple of months.